Editor’s note: This poem was submitted by a student at Jules E. Mastbaum High School through a community partnership with Kensington Voice.
My name is Cianie Soler, and I live a couple minutes away from Mastbaum High School. This poem is about seeing other mothers with their kids, wanting to have a healthy relationship with my mom, and wishing things could be different between us.
As I stare at the other mothers
Holding their children tight,
Giving them that unconditional
Love one needs.
I start to wonder, where did I go wrong?
What did I do to deserve this?
I just wanted a mother to
Hold me tight and tell me
Everything was gonna be
I needed that unconditional
Love, but you never gave it
I think to myself, was I enough?
Is this all my fault?
Hold me close to your heart and sing me a lullaby.
Protect me as I needed.
Love me as I needed.
Hold me as I needed.
Let me rest in your warmth while
you put me to sleep.
Where are you when I need you the most?
Where are you when I’m crying in my room?
Where were you on my birthdays?
Where were you when I graduated?
Where were you?
I am broken, and I need you, can’t you see?
Editors: Khysir Carter, Zari Tarazona Designer: Khysir Carter